New realization
I've learned something today. I had a bass lesson, yes, I am taking lessons. I want to prepare for my Grant MacEwen audition on March 19th, so I called up the principle bassist of the Saskatoon Symphony. Today was the first lesson. We did some scale studies, some rhythmic etudes...A lot of sight reading. With most band teachers (and most musicians in general) I can bullshit my way through music.This was not the case today. There are two types of musicians, passive and assertive. I learned today that I am passive. Not only am I not good at bass, I can't even bullshit my way through a couple scale excersises infront of a recent McGill graduate. After everytime I played something through, he would say "Not bad, not bad at all." It was a routine of his. I could tell he said it to all of his other students. I know I improved a great deal within the first hour, but now I am realizing how hard music really is and the butterflies have returned. I am stressing once again, I must get in. I must. If I don't, well, surely I can get into some other music place. In Kelowna, for example, the audition is some basic scales, as well as determining the difference between a Major and a minor chord. Fucking ridiculous. Grant MacEwen is making me sick, I want to get it done and over with. I have a lot of work to do within the next seven weeks. I've heard that I've had some talent, but I am having doubts.
posted by Civil Whisper @ 6:03 PM
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5 Comments:
You're consistent, daily posting makes me indubitably happy. Otherwise I really don't know what to tell you. I've been blown away by your passion and talent from the first time I heard/saw you play. It's hard for me to give you good advice in this regard, I'm sorry. And I'm sorry about Raven and your allergies, I feel terrible.
I know the same frustrations. After playing music for so many years, playing four instruments, I figured I was a pretty good musician. Not the case. There's so much more to each instrument that I haven't even bothered to touch. But then again, we are all our own worst critics.
Challenge your bass teacher. Next time he tries pulling his "Not bad..." comments, ask him if he says that to all his students. It'll take him aback. Then you kick him in the vagina, steal his upright and run.
I will steal his upright bass. Just as soon as I can open a door while holding one. They are so awkwardly huge! It's frustrating. But I will try. Vagina kicking, here I come.
Hahahaha ahhhh yes. Being able to walk through doors with your instrument is the first thing you must learn young grasshopper. As for the audition, stop stressing. Immediately. That will just make things worse, trust me i would know lol. And i hate to break it to ya, but from YEARS of experience of playing a string instrument, you can bullshit your way through MAYBE the first 5 scales. The rest, you better practice. (I have learned this through many failed attempts to convince my teacher (also a member of the Saskatoon Symphony) that i had in fact, practiced my scales religiously. And i most definently agree with Aaron. Ask him up front about it. Catch him off guard. And yes, kick him in that vagina when he is unawares! Lol that'll teach him to treat The Great Graham Tilsley like every other kid!
And as for this "I've heard that i have SOME talent, but i am having doubts" would you please excuse my french as i say SHUT THE FUCK UP! You my friend are AMAZING. I wish i was graced with 1/100th of the sheer talent that you possess. There is NO doubt in my mind that you will get in. You are my inspiration.
Psh, pity posts are for the weak.
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