Finale

Open house was tonight, all the current grade 8's came and toured through the school. The cast of the musical performed a song, and the jazz band played a song. Some girls were crying, it was the very last time that they would be dancing in musical, no more memories to be made in grade 12. It is over. Does it make me a bad person to not have felt anything inside like those girls? Should I feel sad that it is almost over? I don't. In fact, it's taking too long. I'm impatient, I can't wait until I can get out there into the real world, because there is life beyond those walls (Billy Talent). I told the girls to suck it up and fuck off because their sobs were annoying me. I don't like school performances with concert or jazz band, and choir or musical just suck too. I'm a heartless bitch. I feel no emotion towards the end of these 12 years other than anticipation. Sure it was fun, I had some great times, but it only holds me back from doing the things I love. I don't care for people there, with the exception of the odd one or two people. I can handle not having acquaintances, they are just a waste of energy from all those bloody fake smiles. Either I have closed off my heart entirely, or just redirected all of it's power to something/somewhere/someone else.

Valentines is stressful.