Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Inspire me

I watched the Notebook last night, written by Nicholas Sparks, he also wrote A Walk To Remember. Stereotypical "chickflicks." The guy likes the girl, the girl likes the guy, they come from different backgrounds, then something comes between them (cancer, family). I haven't seen a movie like this in years, a little less than two years, actually. During the movie, I realized how much I have changed in those two years. I was such a "happy" kid then. I tried to think what was so different from then and now in my life. Back then, my weekends consisted of hanging out with a good friend on Friday night, then he would go home for breakfast Saturday morning, and then we'd hang out in the afternoon until the wee morning of Sunday. Then during the week, I'd be at school, telling stories of my weekend to all the lame people who fit into the category "I could care less if you got hit by a bus." The week was a time for me to regain strength for the weekend, I would look forward to the weekend so much. I miss those times. I don't really understand why those things have stopped, the only conclusion I can really come up with is that it is a defense mechanism. I leave in four and a half months. I am starting fresh, I am leaving everything behind. It's not that I want to leave my two best friends behind and her behind, but Saskatoon is only a coffin for me. A place for me to lay and rot. There are three people whom I actually care not to leave. (I would have said four, but as far as I know, he is coming with me.) So there it is, maybe he hates me because I am leaving him. Should I allow his hate to affect me, or should I try to have as many good times as I can in the next four and a half months? I miss him as a person, he's so closed off now. I miss him more as my brother.

3 Comments:

At 2:16 PM, Blogger Dingus said...

Baby, the best advice I can give you is to live where you are while you're there. Anticipate the future but don't dwell on it or let it hold you back from living now. It'll be hard when it happens, but in the meantime try not to let it get in the way of your friendships and relationships. Balance is important but detachment is unnecessary. Frou Frou knows what she's talking about, G-dog.

 
At 4:04 AM, Blogger Syxx said...

Yes, i think its exactly like Simone put it.
Damn, shes brilliant and breath-taking isnt she?
I think you should just live out the time that you have with everyone that counts. Make each moment count, but try not to dwell too much on the future if possible. That will make everything completely un-enjoyable as you will then be remembering that this could be the last time that you will be experiencing this with us. Even if it is something as simple as sitting together chatting at Timmy Ho's, our favorite meeting place.
But basically, i guess do as you feel you must, because i very well may be crazy.

 
At 3:39 AM, Blogger tvpartytonight said...

Remember when we were officially "The Desolates"? And the time that we watched Chris Carrabba play Remember to Breathe and we immediately sat down and played our version of the song and then wrote two new songs or something like that...

What I'm getting at is that I can sympathize with longings for the past.

 

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